Sarcoma Awareness/WSOP Bucket Tour Part # 1 Las Vegas 6-13-2019

So I am going to summarize the trip here:

Getting to Vegas:The trip, we drove 8 houts down from Sacramento, it was uneventful but the scenery was something that if you are from the east coast you not have seen before. We did have a problem with my powerchair. We called Joe at get around mobility and he had a chair waiting for us and even repaired my chair free of charge. GET AROUND MOBILITY is a great cusomter orientated business in Las Vegas if you are in need of a wheel chair.

Vegas itself – Played in 7 WSOP events 1 for 7 (-$6500 )

Won $1500 in sports and $7000 in blackjack (+8500 )

Spent $1500 on hotels, another $4000 on sightseeing shows etc.

So all in all tthe trip cost about $4500 plus gas and rental and some other stuff im missing, I would say $6000 i am lighter then when I got here. Not bad overall. Had my first cash and met my poker hero Phil Helmuth. Found a sponsor for the Main Event.

My Health, some decline but I would say I am still 87% Healthy.

Overall a great time and will be back next week for the main event.

You Have Weeks to Live – The End of life Death with Dignity and Medical Aid in Dying

Well a lot has gone one since I last updated this. I realize I update on many mediums but also know some people follow on here. So here is the long and short, after several failed treatments my leg had begin to rupture from the tumor. Given that my only options were allowing the leg to rupture or have it removed I opted for the latter. Also the 20lb tumor was stealing all my nutrition. I was dangerously low and might have died from systems failure

The CT suggested I still has 6 months or more at the time. I had my entire left hindquarter amputated as a palliative procedure for relief of pain and fungation. The recovery was supposed to take 4-6  weeks figured I would have a few decent months. I was half right.

Post surgical Post recovery I was released onto hospice, Since then I have had wound problems but I have been able to play poker and so some of the things I love again. The pain is lessened, though phantom pain is the worst part. I had a CT after the surgery by 5 weeks 8 total weeks from the last 6 month estimate. i do have a couple of small wounds that are not healing and probably will not i my lifespan. So legless and leaking from holes and still dying of lung sarcoma I cannot say it was a good or bad decision. Just one that had to be made

The surgery often causes hyper progression and individuals just die faster in some cases. something called angiogenesis is where the primary tumor sends grow signals to the mets. Its widely suggested in the literature though my surgeon Dr. Weber at University of Penn disagreed. I actually brought it up many many times but I was told I wasn’t a doctor and really it didn’t change my decision since my leg was going to explode like the Macy’s day fireworks show but gorier.

Now here we are and one mass mass tripled and is located dangerously close to my heart and some other vital structures. They tell me to think of life in weeks. Think of life in weeks? As someone who always has things meticulously planned out its a hard concept to swallow but the scans don’t lie. I am now heading to California Weds to pursue my right to die in a peaceful and painless matter since the law here in NJ will not be in effect for months and I have just weeks.

For what it’s worth, I feel alright and have been enjoying life and raising awareness. I hear my downturn will be swift and I want to be ready, I believe all Americans should be able to choose to end their life peacefully if they have a terminal condition. Someone like me, who dedicated his life to never punching a clock or waking up if he didn’t have to should have to rot in pain and asphyxiate slowly and painfully? F*ck that and fuck cancer. California here I come. I hope to make one more big awareness run at WSOP this year if I can make it. So if you’ve followed this long sty tuned I still have work to do.


Kevin Racks

11-5-2018- New scans results are not good

Newest scan results in today. Chemo was ineffective and treatment is now being discontinued as per medical advice from my Dr. They want me to try something called votrient that has a lot of nasty side effects but could slow growth for 3-4 months, most concerning was a mass that is now 2.5cm on my right lung up from 7mm last time. 2.5 doublings. Due to anatomical position if its the primary metastasis it favors lifespan of 12+ months.

The MRI of leg showed that I now have a 16 x 8 x 7cm mass in the site of the failed surgery. It has doubled 10x in size since 8 weeks ago. They are now concerned if they cant control it that it could end my life within 6 months. Surgical consultation to consider a full amputation could make a candidate for a lung surgery but they can’t guarantee it would work. Lots of tough decisions to be made. Maybe more radiation. Updates as they become available. For now focusing on work and my awareness raising campaign which hits Borgata Nov 8th